I still love the night.

[ music | Imogen Heap – The Moment I Said It ]

I always loved this hour of the day/night/what-have-you. Right now it’s ten to five a.m., 54 degrees out, and foggy. There’s just something about it tha tmakes the perfect endcap to whatever kind of day I had, good or bad. Sitting up in the wee hours, chatting with a friend or three, watching the world sleep. It makes me feel powerful in the sense that there’s a whole nothing day ready to dawn, I can see and feel it coming. It really makes the idea of a life stretching out before me palpable. It’s one of the few times I can look around a find some genuine hope, a feeling not ginned up nor blindly clung to for the sake of mental health. There really is another day coming, life goes on.

It’s been one of the roughest years yet so far, and it’s not over, but frankly I think rock bottom was hit, and is receeding at an increasing rate. You can sit and think about how you’d take various forms of bad news, but you’re never right. I really assumed I’d take certain things a lot harder before I could move on, but I didn’t. That shouldn’t surprise me, but it does. For a mere moment, it was, “Holy shit.” But a beat later it was, “Well, ok, so, where do we go next?” Unchangable situations are just that, unchangable, so don’t waste your time complaining. The faster you get on dealing with it the easier it is. I guess the old advice is correct, just rip the bandage right off and get it over with.

I still love the nights, too. I think I’m almost ready to start finding someone to share them with, too. Almost, I’m not that mature yet. 😉


sounds similar to me, but with a little more optimism.

i love the night, no cars on the road, its quiet, its not bright, noone expects you to do anything…

but the morning brings with it the same questions of what the fuck am i doing with my life. The morning is time to hide from the people.

im mature, but cynical and jaded. 24 and divorced, australian too, in case youre wondering.

i came accross this site looking for the word "naked" in google image. it was 3rd on the list after perfect, beauty and love.

3 friends is all i have.

its 11:14am

It’s 12:43 AM here in wonderful little Florida. =/

It would be pleasant if I didn’t live in a garage, have no windows, and the humidity wasn’t somewhere between 80% and Old Faithful.

Otherwise it’s as quiet as could be. Just a few fans droning on [Actually, quite soothing.] I do adore the night and early morning though.

I was on the phone untill 6 one morning, watching the sun come up.
Dew had started to form on my shoe.
It was kind of nice.

Sit back, relax, and enjoy the splendor of LACK of human contact. Although, sweet sorrow, it is not meant to last. Blasted ‘education’ [Which I use very lightly.] system.

Though, the light is on the horizon. Dir En Grey in two days. *Extreme happy.*

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